Sunday, November 25, 2007
Aku, Kamu dan Dia
Guess which one is JoneT??? I m confused!
I know i m liking Jonet!
I know that for sure.
But sumhow, Roydi will always be in the picture!
Argggggghhhhhhhhh!
Irritating nyer!
Cant I have a crush on sum1 in peace???
Aku tgh hepi2 asik ter-angau kan si Jonet, even got a slight itty bitty tiny weeny dream abt him (oh gosh, JONET JONET!)
AND THEN.....
Suddenly!
Suddenly, the dream was taken over by R*! I cant believe it!
And then when i wake up, i felt guilty.
Guilty of wat oso i dunno.
Shitlah!
N of coz mcm ter-miss dier gak. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
So irritating!
I hate watever i'm feeling!
Towards both the men!
Sumtimes, wen I reflect back my feelings towards R, kadang2 tu terfikir gak, aku ni dh kena mandrem ker???? Taklah.... of coz not, he's not dat sort. Paling pun dier berdoa. N damn, I cnt fight doas...shit. damn. mampus.
Haiz...........
Eh2... i tink dis is the first time i wrote his name in this blog rite? I dun remember mentioning the him. So here you go. Thank gog nobody reads my blog. Kalau tak.... shit.damn.mampus.
JONET, WHERE R U???
SHIKIN, R U INSANE???
Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 5:15 PM
Friday, November 23, 2007
Post wedding
First of all,Alhamdulillah... everything is now officially over...
Along is married to Shahreil Bakri.
Alhamdulillah... everything went almost 100% smooth and 100% as planned.
The akad was sekali lafaz, which was followed bt Shahreil crying as soon as they are pronounced husband and wife. Emo siak Shahreil. He cried again when he salam my dad and apparently cried again when he sang the song to Along on Sun at his wedding reception. My sis? Dia maintain jer! Kan aku dh ckp, mesti Shahreil nangis and Along tak pape.
The pelamin and decor? Haiya! Muz i say it? definitely gorgeous lah. Danny Hanafi per! You have no idea the number of people who stopped by, took pics, asked the family, asked for his namecard, and closed deals with him during the 3 days. Even an ambulans stopped to look at the pelamin! hahahah! And since the nikah pun kat pelamin n stage, u imagine lah the impact!
VAVAVOOOOM!!! Kalah CT and Erra! Dorang tgk pun gerenti bunuh diri! Hhaahahahahah!
And expected... the crowd... mak ko!!! Tak ley angkat beb! Imagine: pukul 4 petang meja masih tk cukup! Imagine: pukul 1030 org dh start dtg! Imagine: Pukul 1130, all 12 tables are filled! Imagine: Nikah ada ard 300 guests! Imagine: Sat yg tk buat apa2 jd mcm dinner, when 400+++ guests came! Ini br sah org kata 3 hari 3 malam!
N Danny always go for an extra special impact kan! He put the wedding cake in the middle of the pelamin! Imagine: MY LOVELY WEDDING CAKE! YUP THE ONE WEARING THE MISS UNIVERSE CROWN! VAVAVOOM OF MOOM I TELL YOU!!!!
I LOVE DANNY HANAFI! Nt in dat sort of way of coz, bt i cnt say the same abt Kak Fati tho! ;p
She's interested in him!!!! Mestilah, he's gd looking, fair and very creative!
So... who m i interested in? Hahahahahhahah!
The videographer for the NIKAH... or whom i manajaly call.... JONET!
swwooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
I'm still flirting wif him rite now...
bt i was juz hit by a sad truth!
he's 21 i'm 24!
how sad!
very very sad!
haiz....
inilah nasib ku...
BTW, everybody said i did n excellent job. even danny!
he said i should at least do this part time.
a compliment like dat, coming from a person like dat,
how do i feel?
PRICELESS!
hilang segala penat lelah anger n frustrations.
serious!
ppl has start to book me for their wedding!
hahahahahhah!
nak mampus!
no way m i gonna put my head on the chopping board again.
aku taubat nyah!
niwei, along and shahreil will be going for their honeymoon to bali this sat. as of now, she is staying at her in-laws bcoz they need to go sembah menyembah on thurs and fri. n went she had to go last nite, she came into the room and said bye kin.. i din turn n juz said bye...
b4 u tink i'm mean, think again.
i mite juz cry.
she said she feels like crying. n i noe dat's nt gd. so i pretended like i din care. aniwei, she'll b back on fri nite. alah... 2hari jer kiter2 nk emo buat apa kan. save the tears for the real ting wen she finally pack up and move to Bukit Batok.
bt kesian and sedih gak... she keeps calling. n saying she wanna go home. irony, as wen they were dating n engaged, she spends a lot of time at his place and outside. den my parents said, dun say dat n kip calling hm. wait her in laws and hubby will think dat she dun like dem. she got pissed and even sadder and said "ayah ngan ibu jahat!" before ending the call.
dat was sad. n me, being the nicest human being on earth start to not only feel sad, bt feels worried abt her. MY GOD KIN! FOR GOODNESS SAKE, SHE IS UR FREAKING ELDER SISTER! N SHE IS WIF HER HUSBAND! Y THE HECK R U WORRIED????! Idiot lah!
I dunno how it will b wen she finally moves out. It'l be sad. like wat yani said, we'll lose one chick.
this chick has turned into a hen, n soon, insyaAllah a mother hen.
GOD, y must life be like this? y must we grow up juz to get separated?
I guess it's for the best.
On the lighter note,
I haf a crush on JONET! I dunno wat i shld do next....
Help me peeps!
Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 1:20 AM
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Jitters
I'm getting the jitters alrite.Yup the long-awaited wedding jitters and panic attacks that surprise, surprise din came as soon as i tot it wld. I was panicking n shaky like mad juz now.
Bt funny, now dat i m in the hse, surrounded by the wedding environment, i feel calm.
No more jitters.
Maybe i was badly and heavily influenced by the fact that i was rushing to finish up work.
Well, work will nvr finish anyway.
So wat the heck m i talking abt.
I tink I mite also b influenced by him.
Our last time, remember?
I was kinda surprised when he asked me to pass his gift in front of the malay colleagues. U noe how gossip cn get rite?
N in front of dem, he basically pushed his hands to my lips (konon2 mcm aku salam dier lah) wen we shoke hands to wish him all the best. n we were juz holding hands after dat. kak rin said, amboi, kata melampau tp tgk tu tgn, n den kak faz said, mmg melampau, tgk kat depan mata kiter n kat sekolah pulak tu.
n den they joke abt how he shldnt do dat memandangkan dh pegi umrah. n he said , eh inilah yg diminta waktu kat umrah. n den they said to me u ni...mcm dosa umrah dier lah...
den he said, "sebenarnya dialah pahala umrah i..."
n dat was wen the jitters came.
i hope he like my gift. it's simple n cheap. sumting dat he usually doesnt get. bt there's a meaning to it. n i hope, everytime he looks at the gift, it will reminds him of me.
Haha! Wedding jitters ke.....??????
Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 5:10 PM
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
The End of Another Chapter...
The End.It's here. Once again. A chapter begin and now its near the end. Too near to the end.
For sure, I know i will meet this road again. I always knew.
And I've told myself months back, that I will be prepared.
I decided months back, to take it one step at a time.
Enjoy and cherish watever's left, and watever's around,
so when the end is here,
I can be calm.
I told myself, pretend that he's a dying person.
Knowing how long he will live.
Knowing wen he will die.
So that I'll appreciate him better.
So that I'll juz enjoy this to the last brink.
So that there'll be no regrets.
and definitely,
No hope.
Sumtimes I wonder how times can fly so fast.
It's been 11 mths now.
And yet, i know it will end.
And tmr, the day will come.
Come friday, nt only a chapter ends,
my story will end.
Ironic, isnt it?
A new life is about to begin for sum1,
while mine might juz b ending.
after sun,
tings will nvr be the same again...
It's always the end, isnt it?
It's always the end.
Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 11:26 PM
Saturday, November 10, 2007
23 going 22...
As I have vowed in my previous entry dat i shall blog more religiously, I m posting another entry almost immediately! hehehehehehhe.... I noe, I noe, a bittttttttttttt of cheating.... bt a bit only mah... aniwei, wat counts is the number of posts wat!Talking abt number of posts, my POST NO 51, entitled MANIS MANIS LEBARAN, is still not posted yet. n dis is like post no 53. heheheheh.... I promise to post it asap. u muz b wondering y m i nt posting it now. the ting is... i'm at werk on dis very gloomy and rainy sat morn. n the post is abt hari raya, if u havent get the drift. (so slow ah!) n i was halfway putting up pics. n the rest of the pics is in the pc at hm... so bear with me, n u'll get to c the pics soon. for those who cant wait to look at moi pretty faces during raya, please go to my friendster and facebook. if u noe me, u will noe my account. if u dun.... erm... well... get to me lah! i'm VERRRRRRYYYY interestingly boring, n boringly interesting!
FACEBOOK!
I LURVE FACEBOOK!
Shoutout to syidah (TP) for introducing me to it. Now i'm super hooked!
I look forward to fighting slayers, werewolves, vampires and zombies everyday
n den throw sheep at ppl,
n of coz, kick them!
I'm sadistic.
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEH.
Before i digress any further, as i always do, lemme tell u abt the title of my entry today.
"23 going 22"
Question: What r u gonna do wen u have 23 months more to go?
Another question: What will u do, wen u noe, u only have 23 mths to go?
So tell me the answer. What should be done? Wat should i do? Should i start getting desperate, should i stay calm n let fate decide? Wat to do? Wat to do?
I've been on the roller coaster ride a gazillion times, ranging from, stay calm, be desperate, be devastated n crushed, be solemn, be straight faced n den desperate again.
It doesnt help that I'm planning a wedding now. The wedding of my dreams. Dreams. At least i get to see and experience it tho i'm nt the one getting married. At least i cn proudly say in the future, "how many of u have the chance to fulfill ur wedding dreams fully?"
I did.
Anyway, if i'm the bride, i will ruin the wedding. Along is perfect for my wedding dream i guess. Anyway, I'm always 'backstage', nvr the diva. If i become the diva, the whole status quo (n probly universe) will be thrown off-balance. So its fine.
N the wedding now is getting tooo near. Less den a week. LESS DEN A WEEK MY SISTER IS GETTING MARRIED. FOR REAL. THE BAD NEWS: SHAHREIL IS OFFICIALLY MY BRO-IN-LAW. Thank god i've started referring to him as my bro-in-law after their ROMM. Konon2, nk get used to the idea lah. My sister n myself havent got the jitters yet. Nt juz yet. Tapi hari tu... ko tgk lah dier, ko tgklah aku. MAMPOZ!
Bt deeeeeeeeeeepppppppppp down, I know. I know that i'm a very sad n a lil bit disappointed that the wedding dreams haf to be handed over to along. I know she loves my dreams, well, i'm known for my great ideas! so i ges this shall be my wedding gift to her. (after all the services is for free!) i'm more saddened by the mere thought of how this will nvr happen to me. I will nvr be wat ppl always say "blissfully in love, blissfully married" BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Everytime I attend a wedding, or watch a wedding (ones ard my hse), I'm so happy for them... and then i get sad.... coz i cn seriously feel that that is soooooooooo far away from me... n is getting further away from me...
TRUTH: I've a confession. There's another reason y i make sure i'm in control of the wedding n everything haf to get my approval. Its coz, to me... this is MY wedding. AS IN MY WEDDING. I want it to b perfect the way i've always dreamt of it coz my friends will b there, n they cn actually see wat my wedding will look like, coz i noe it wun happen for real. so there u go. its my wedding, nt my marriage. bt we cnt b greedy rite? b thankful. i m thankful.
so now i'm preparing myself for the big day. the big day that i'll nvr get to experience. how? wat m i gonna do? how m i ever gonna be fully prepared for an emotional roller coaster ride like dat? how m i gonna kip a straight, sweet smiling face wen my heart's breaking, my head spinning, hating the ppl who always wanna budge in, panicking abt the minor2 tings, and running away from ppl who keep teasing me abt 'wen is gonna be ur turn'. ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!
I ges there's only one answer. The obvious one. The one one answer to all my problems over the years. The one ting i really know.
ITS SHOWTIME.
yup, showtime. like i always said: smile, i'm on candid camera, show must go on!
HAHA! Typical.
Time is running short for the wedding. Time is running short for me. So what will i do noeing i have 23 going to 22 more months to go?
I'll wait for fate to decide.
Meanwhile...
ITS SHOWTIME!
Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 9:04 AM
To err is human, and well well well, its my blog!
I was reading thru my blog n i grimaced at all the errors!I have a headache juz by reading all the short forms i used for this blog!
Bt yeah, i dun haf the time to type in long sentences, with perfect english.
Aniwei, it's my blog, GUA PUNYA SUKA LAH!
*I, DISTURBED ANGEL, A.K.A. CRUSHED V FROM THE CURSED VIRGINZ CLAN, PROMISE TO BLOG MORE RELIGIOUSLY, AND VOW TO BE A SUCCESSFUL BLOGGER LIKE MY TRUE IDOL, MR. V, A.K.A, MANAGER MELETOPS*
(kalau tk mgr sokong mgr, siapa lagi lah kan!)
CIAO!